I hate this thing because once i were there, i was looking and envying  at my friends life, i always thought that i’m must doing something wrong – and this is why my life sucks.
But the thing i didn’t know is that my life is ok, even more then ok, so i don’t get everything that i want – so what!

Today i’m happy were i am, i’m 20 years old and:

• i have a Practical Engineering degree in Software Engineering
• i own a web development company for 3 years ( in July )
• i have awesome friends
• i am independent  since age 16 – if i wanted to buy something i worked hard for it!
• i have an awesome family which i wouldn’t replace ever!

I can go on and on and on, but i think i made my point.

So do me and yourself a favor and stop underestimate yourself! – If you think about it, you’ll see you have such a wonderful life!

So lets get back a little bit to the last few months.

So i finally finished college about two months ago, and last week i finally had my last exam and the most important one, the project.
It was a success! i got 100 and i was very very happy! i hope i’ll get a good job @ the army.

Also i decided to quit McDonald’s  and start moving my business, and that was the right choice!
Since i decided to get serious i’m getting so much job offers and i’m so happy! my business is finally getting big and getting serious!

Today i’ve had 2 events about my business:

1. I’ve launched a new site to my business: http://devision.co.il
2. I’ve been in W3C Israel Meeting #3 and one of the participants there came to us ( me & Andrey ) and talked to us and he recognized me and my business!
   And he has a successful company! and he offered us to work with him, and of course we said yes!

In conclusion, the last few weeks was so good for me and my business i hope it will be like that until i’ll enlist the army and even after!

Lets start with my current haircut:

Two words, and two words only: "My God..."

as you can see, disgusting!!!

The haircut i want the most is that:

I want this haircut damn!

The one thing i hate the most is that i have a dry and curly hair, and this is why i can’t choose this haircut
I don’t know what to do :\ i mean my old haircut wasn’t pretty so i had to kill it:

Kill me now...

any comments? :\
I want to know if there is a place where i can go and they’ll show me which kind of haircut’s i can do…

I don’t know why but i’m a very curious man, i like reading articles about stuff i don’t know, i like cooking also, and because i love so much subjects i don’t know what i want to learn in the university, i know that i’ve time but i still want to know.

I have that thirst to knowledge, i want to know lots and lots of stuff:

• i want to know how things work
• i want to know how to analyze complex situations
• i want to know how to fix things
• i want to learn to do stuff on my own

I have this constant fear that i don’t know enough, that i’m wasting my time with all of the computer shit, i want to change my field of expert, but i don’t have the guts to do so.

I love music, but i don’t want to be a musician.
I love technology, but i hate electronics and i hate programming.
I love cooking, but i don’t think this would be my job in the future ( probably a hobby ).
I love psychology, but i don’t want to listen all day to people’s problems.
I love history, but i love the future, i like to advance.
I love biology, but i hate to see the inside of the human body.

I can go on with it all day, but in the end, i’ll eliminate any chance of learning stuff.
I want to learn but there is not enough time, i feel that i’m loosing my time and i have to make a quick decision, but i can make it because it will change my whole feature.

Today there are more subjects then we can imagine, and that’s why i’m so confused…

“Oh rescue me, oh rescue me, my love,
Oh rescue me, oh rescue me, my invisible love…”

I have about 3 months until i enlist the army, so i want to work and make money, but i can’t work there anymore…

I can search for a new place to work, but i don’t know if it’s worths the effort. And if i do start searching for a new place to work who will hire me for two months? What should i do? i’m so mixed up in thoughts….

What do you think i should do?

So today i’m celebrating my 20th birthday! ( happy birthday to me )
In the last few days i’ve been thinking a lot about the past 10 years, especially what i’ve accomplished in those years.

At first i was very sad because i though i haven’t accomplished any of my targets, but lately i realized how much i was wrong!
I’ve done so much in the past 10 years ( for a teenager! ), that i was amazed!

In the age of 12 i didn’t know nothing about computers! nothing! but slowly i’ve developed this hunger to learn everything i can about computers, at first it was the simple stuff like how to format my PC and installing a fresh copy of any operating system. After that i read a lot about tech support, how to fix problem in my computers, then how to work with hardware, communication between computers ( network ), and finally – the internet!

At the age of 16 i was amazed when my PC got an internet connection ( thanks goes to my private math teacher! ), then i learned how to install a forum system ( IPB ) on a server, and then i got the tools and the motivation to start and develop modifications.
A few months later i started up my first Linux-based hosting company, it wasn’t a success but it gave me the tools i need for further use.

Now i own a web-development comapny named DeVisionStudio, and i advise and work with a few major companies in Israel, such as Harlan Laboratories.

Computers wasn’t the only major achievement in my life, i’ve been hooking up with a few cool buddies that now they’re my best friends.
I was in a relationship with was a great turning point in my life, and it ended about 6 or 7 months ago.
I’m currently in my last year in college, learning computer science before i’ll enlist to the IDF.

I’m hoping this new decade will be a better one with new experiences and new opportunities :)